Love Is Also Pain

Don't try to fight it
You can't deny it
Just deal with it
It's just part of it

Isn't this what you wanted?
When you longed to be in love?
When you stared at other couples
Wishing that was you
And now that we're through
I'm sorry if it's not what you expected
I tried my best to make you happy
But I couldn't get through to you
You were so close
Yet so far away
So lost in self-loathing
And more concerned with fighting
Than understanding
Or at least trying to
Frustration would get the best of you
You were battling many demons
Inside of you
But in actuality
You weren't really
Alone
Because I was fighting
A war of my own

Don't you know it's a part of it
Pain and pleasure
Seem to be a package deal
Well
It's no pain no gain
Right?
Nothing in life is truly free
We pay a price for everything
So when you longed to hold my hand
And hold me close
Kiss my neck
And whisper into my ear
Did you expect the hurt
The fights
The pain
And the dissapointment
It's all a part of it
Stop complaining
Nothing in life is free
We pay a price for everything
But at least I can say it was worth it
All this pain I must live with now
Was worth
Just spending a single moment
With you by my side
Happy
Because now I can live
With that beautiful memory
And memories are all we really have left
In the end
Once the cake has been eaten
Once the party is over
Only the memories remain
Locked away in your brain

It hurts to know that you love someone else
Maybe even more than you loved me
But I don't blame you
Because I don't even really love myself
And I want to hate whoever that person is
But I don't
Because if they can make you happy
Then that makes me happy
I just want you to be okay
I'm sorry
I just wish you wouldn't of lied to me
Made me believe all these things
Like how I was the only one for you
So much bullshit
I can't help but hear
Echo in my ear
And replay in my head
All those things you said
How did you move on so fast?
When I can't even fathom another relationship right now?
How did you manage to fall in love so quickly?
Are you sure you're not fooling yourself?
Letting your desperation
And your loneliness
Take over you
Making you believe
Some fantasy figure
Is something you want
Something so grand
When in reality
You know that nothing can compare
And it's only a band-aid
To help heal the wound
Something to help you move on
And once they let you down as well
Once your fairytale turns to reality
You'll be back to square one
Oh sorry I don't mean to have such little hope
For you and your newfound love
I really do want you to be happy
But aren't you being a hypocrite
When you tell yourself
To stop being negative and that it'll work out
Because you didn't seem to have hope for us
When I was still holding on
You bashed me for being hopeful
You made fun of me
For finding all the rights in the wrongs
But now it's all you can do
To tell yourself it'll get better
To soothe yourself to sleep
To create a fantasy
Deep down
You know you won't be able to keep
Envision your life
Mimick your dreams
Living is not what it seems
It's too tainted
Beautiful lies are painted
Your eyes are deceived
You're fooled by the realistic illusion
Stuck in a delusion
I wish I could've saved you
I wish I could've proved to you
What's true
But you didn't want me to
Maybe because you're afraid
Like most people are
Because it may destroy
Your perfectly envisioned
Fantasy
Your hope for the future
I'm sorry
I'm just trying to be realistic
Isn't that what we had agreed to do
You just don't seem to know
How to follow through