You're just a ghost now....

It doesn't matter what brought you here, what matters is that you stayed....

Tomorrow could be one day too late.. So do what you can today.. Nothing in life is guaranteed, not even life itself.

Someone once told me that I have to choose what I win or lose. Cause you can't have everything.. But with you, I have everything.. So you're the one I'd always choose....

And now I'm numb
But the tears
They still come
Nothing seems to supress the effect
You have on me
I could be so high
So carefree
But somehow
I still think of you
Even when I'm fucked out of my mind
You still seem to find your way into my thoughts
Pervading them
But you don't always fuck with my high
Because I don't mind remembering you
I would never want to forget you
It's just funny
That when I smoke to forget
I still remember you
And I miss you....
It's quite strange actually
The effect you have upon me
Or rather the effect I allow you to have
But I guess I kind of like it
If even just a little
Because it takes me back to the days when we were together
And if I close my eyes when I'm high
I can almost see you smiling back
It's like I'm smoking with you
Your memory, your everlasting impact
It still follows me around
And haunts me
And I'd be scared
But I'm not
Sometimes though
I just wish you would leave me alone
Because it hurts too much
I try to ignore any thoughts associated with you
But so many things remind me of you
And sometimes I even think I hear your voice
We may not be together
We'll never be
But you still haunt me....

Everything hurts, in the end....

Come with me
Don't be afraid
Everyone hurts you
Even if they would never mean to
Everyone hurts us in the end..
Remember that
When all we have left
Is the memories
It's gonna hurt
It's inevitable
When you love someone
No matter how good they were to you
It's always going to hurt
So don't be afraid
Just live for the moment
Try to be happy
Appreciate
Every
Little
Thing
While it's still here
While you still can
Someday we won't be together
But for right now
Take my hand
Let's run away
Together
Wherever..
What's the difference
When our fate is the same
Either way
None of us are to blame
But still
I'm sorry for the pain....

Don't leave what you can do today
For tomorrow
It's true
What they say
We aren't promised another day
So live for the moment
Say what you need to say....

Stab me, with your words.. Your tongue is sharp..

Sing me a sad song
That makes me cry
That makes me feel alive
That pain
That sting
It shocks me
Like a violent jolt
Of electricity
Running through me
Reminding me
That I can still feel
And there's still so much more to life
To be felt
Not just this melancholy moment
I seem to remain stuck in repetition
Replaying hurt and pain
With every memory running through my brain
It's a neverending battle
Of emotions
But the happiness
It's worth it
And that's what I'm fighting for
My right to be happy
Again..

Tell me now.. Tell me again.. So I can relive it once more..

We made mistakes
At the wrong time
With the wrong person
In the wrong state of mind
But that's how a mistake is made
When all those wrongs are in play
Maybe that's why it's not me and you today
Because you were one of them
You were a mistake waiting to be made....
But why did it feel so right?
When I was with you
By your side..

Smoke inhaled
Breathing part of me in
Part of the air I breathe out
Can you taste me?
Even through all those chemicals?
Do you crave me?
More than the nicotine
Running through your veins

....

watching a doc on the bloods and crips and one of the og's talking about how her oldest bro who wasn't even in a gang was shot in the back of the head and killed on impact. The way she recalled her brother broke my heart; "he was so humble, wouldn't even hurt a fly.." She said they would ask him to kill a fly and he'd stutter and be like "n-no why don't you kill it? the fly got a right to live just as much as you got a right to live.." broke my heart