You've done more than you give yourself credit for....

Your smile
Still makes
Everything okay
It's amazing
How such a simple thing
Can have such an impact
And hold so much meaning
I don't think you'll ever realize
How important and special you are
And how much you can change
With just your smile....

Even the air we breathe is toxic....

And even now
That you're gone
Your inspiration
Still carries on
A lasting effect
Like your everlasting memory
Remembering your smile inspires
But most of all
My promise to you
It retracts and bounces back to me
Every once in a while
Reality smacking me
Pestering me
But I want to
I want to do it
I was just discouraged
Pushed off the path
Fog blinded my way
But now it's clear
Remembering how happy I made you
When nothing else interfered
It makes it worth it
I want to be who I told you I would
Because I know that I could
Sorry if that sounds vain
Sorry if my ambitions are a little insane
But your argument is inane
When I'm proving you wrong
Day by day
I'm running along
Still not falling off
Still going strong
You didn't believe me
But your smile did
And to make it even more clear
I'm not doing this for you
I'm doing this for me
Now I'm not turning around
Too far ahead to even look back
I'm staying on track
It hurts
But I can push through the pain
To live is to relive everything again
Regret and tears
Frustration and fears
Fighting just to stay alive
It's a daily struggle
A bitter pill to swallow
But don't quit now
You've still got more road to follow
And you said you'd follow through
At the end of each day
You can't deny what's true
The light may be gone
But the truth shines through
You know what you live for
As much as you know why you're fighting
Because it's worth it
Life and happiness is
Those moments of sheer bliss
Maybe even in ignorance
But hey
At least they help me get by
And sometimes I don't want to hear
What they say
Drugs are bad for you
Okay
Well I chose my poison pretty wisely
I want to feel so numb
I can't feel that I'm dying
I can't even feel my face when I'm crying
But they're tears of joy
I promise
It seems like the best things in life
Are made to kill you
And I'd rather die happy
Than live sad
So seduce me and poison me
Like a snake hunting its prey
Wrap yourself around me
Pretend you love me
As you slowly suffocate me
My drug
My candy
You make everything fine and dandy
But I don't want to live that way
I just want everything to be okay
I want to escape
Let me get the hell away
That's what they say
Until they realize that nothing in this world
Is ever really okay
People seem to only remember why they left
But not why they came
And then they slowly start to remember
Those intoxicated days
People complain about the consequences
But forget the happiness that preceded it
Pleasure is a package deal with pain

~ Your Daily Dose of Daisy ~

In mourning, in the morning....

For another day lost

Wasting time mourning over lost time....

~~~

Love me, love me
I want to let you in
And I'm sorry it wasn't sooner
I just didn't know where to begin
You're so much to take in
That I lose my breath around you
I can barely look at you
I think I'd get lost just looking at you
Even more than I already am
Since you came into my life
I lost my direction
You gave me a new destination
With your glistening eyes
You created a new motivation
So invigorating
It made me feel like I could skyrocket
Into outer space
Away from everything I know
Where I don't have to know
With you by my side
All I want to know is that you'll love me forever
So love me, love me
I'm sorry it took me all this time
To realize
What it was I was trying to find
When I thought I was looking for myself
I really just wanted to make you mine
Because without you
I'm nothing
And I only want to be found by you
I want to travel the world with you
Learn together
Grow together
Like the roots of a tree
Your love is embedded in me
It brings me to life
It gives me purpose
You gave me
A sense of importance
You believed in me
When I didn't
You made me into who I am
You helped me find myself
Because with you
I am found
And without you
I am lost....

Things will remain just as beautiful as you found them, if you never stop believing in them.

Your smile ignites my soul like fire....

Copper colored pennies
Rusty yet they still shine bright in the light
Just like your soul
You poor weary traveler
Polish your perception
Notice the little things
Appreciate what usually can't be seen
Oh don't you know
That the best things
Are usually appreciated with the heart
You might not see them
Oh but you can feel them
And the things that are truly gold
They never lose their shine
Your smile can still light up
A whole room
Your touch can still fill me with passion
And make me feel alive
Your kisses still taste like the first time....
I love you
And with that eternal love in your heart
And in your eyes
That glisten when I look into them
I want you to be forever mine
You're a real gem
Your beauty still finds a way
To break through
And with every glance
A piercing blue
A smile so true
Even the birds think so too
As they sing for me and you
Like they did on the first day we met


She never stopped to truly appreciate things
So that time fled past her
And good things got away
She never mourned the last light of day
For she's become used to waking up
Wasting time
Seems to be part of her daily routine
Skipping along the tracks of time
Humming a merry tune
As she leads herself to her own demise
But never truly finding what makes her happy
She's a lost soul
Too blind
Too preocupied
With unimportant things
To realize
What she's missing out on
Every day is a chance
But every day that passes
Is a chance lost
Laying there
On her bed
Watching mindless shows
That only seem to perpetuate
Her ignorance
She rolls over during a commercial break
And starts to play with the hourglass
Beside her bed
Not realizing something good
When it's right in front of you
Instead of trying to find herself
She loses herself more
Twirling and dancing along
With the flow of life
Not caring
Like she should
Not caring
For what she should....
Watching the grains of sand
Run through
She's mesmerized
Like a fool
Hypnotized
Every day is a repetition
A static scene
Of her stagnant life
She's running
But never knowing where
Moving
Yet not really getting anywhere
Can't even tell North from South
She even has trouble guiding herself home
Because maybe she seemingly has one
But in reality it's only the illusion of a home
Walls aren't what make a true home
They are merely shelter
A real home is when you feel
Like you belong
Somewhere
And she never seems to
Well she never seems to search further
Than the surface
Oversees important details
Things that would help her realize....
Things that could guide her home
But she's too far lost
In a sea of her own
Stranded on her own island
She has confined herself on
Like living trapped in a maze
Running around
Yet never finding an escape
Maybe death will be
Your only escape
It's truly a tragedy
Don't fall into society's trap
They want you to be as brainwashed
As you are
Sweet naive child
If I could help you open your eyes
I would
But I couldn't help you
And I don't think you even want to be helped
Living in denial
Living in a spiral
Falling down
Deeper and deeper
Every day
Grab ahold
Of your life
Take charge
I know you can do it
I saw you at your worst
And I still believed in you....
I never lost hope for you
And even though you hurt me
You're still as beautiful as ever
That I can't deny
Such a beautiful lie
Bitter sweet beat
Accompanying your every movement
You are a melancholy melody
Playing a song that no one can understand
Not even yourself
A symphony of destruction....

And She Still Loves You

Confined
Within her own mind
Physically letting go
But never mentally

You fill me with such emotion and make me want to write and sing and dance and live forever..

I wish you could've been with me
Through every chapter of my life
So that maybe you could understand me better
And maybe you would love me more....

Emotions take flight
Like butterflies
Carry them away with the wind
Let my tears roll out
Into rivers
And join into them
Memories lost in time
But I can still remember
The way you made me feel
Just one look
Is all it takes
Life is like sand
Running swiftly
Through your fingers
Emotions paper thin
Words cutting deep
Effective
Yet stealthy
Leaving no trace
Only the tears
Running down her face
Kill her quickly
Softly
Sweetly
Feed her lies
Sugar coat everything
Poison her with candy

Yeah, this..

Boo hoo you fucking turd go get run over by a train choo choo

She tried to run from the stench
Yet she couldn't escape the wretched wench

Yep..

Compared to you, she looks like a turd on the side of the road. With tits.

The light in your eyes then....

The life
And the light
In your eyes
Then
So alive
So bright
So vivid
And ecstatic
How can it go from that
To pure darkness
Static....

Having to see you like that
The last I saw of you
I feel hollow
I'm alive
But feel like an empty shell
I need someone to ignite my soul

There is always room for improvement.

Freedom, to run. Freedom, to stop and realize..

Where are you now?
You were here
So alive
And so happy
And now you're gone
Just like that
Like a flash of light
You're gone
Like you never existed
And remain as only a memory
A distant dream
Where has the life in you fled?
Where have you been led?
I want to go there with you
I need to see you again
And not just in a photograph
I tried to keep you from leaving
But I couldn't make you stay
And I learned that the best way
To keep you from going away
Is to let you escape
So that you'll realize what made you stay
And maybe return someday
So roam free
My love
The love you gave to me
Will always live within me
I will never forget
And I will always regret

"A Normal Person"

I know that nothing will happen
If tomorrow you don't see me
And I have to accept
That for this dreamer
You no longer have an interest in
I was never your priority
Or your center of attention
And I have to accept
That if I used to be
Now I'm not inside of your heart

I'll make myself pass as a normal person
Who can be without you
That doesn't feel bad
And I'm gonna smile
So that my sadness goes
Unperceived
And I will handle this maturely
I will leave
And for the first time
I promise not to cry
And I'm gonna smile
So that my sadness goes unnoticed

What do I tell them?
Of your disappearance
I have to just accept
That if I was in your heart
Now I'm not

I'll make myself pass as a normal person
That can live without you
That doesn't always feel sad
And I'm gonna try and smile
So that my sadness is not perceived
With maturity
I will distance myself
And for the first time
In what feels like forever
I promise I won't cry
And I'm gonna smile
So that my sadness goes unnoticed....

Violent Death

I imagine how gruesome and terrifying it must be to die at the hands of some psychopath. Your last thoughts of panicking fear and the pain, the excruciating pain of being shot or stabbed into multiple times. Or perhaps they fucked with you first and dragged your death out. And the last thing you see is their face, as you cry and scream for help.... It gives me chills.... 

I become paranoid sometimes; I fathom someone breaking into my house and murdering me while I sleep. I imagine someone coming in through a window and sneaking into the room I'm in, as I sit there unknowing of the doom that's upon me.

I imagine someone with long dark hair, a pale face, a creepy smile and demeanor creeping towards me with a shining silver blade. 

I tend to entertain the thought of creepy things because of my lively imagination, so I'm constantly freaking myself out.

Help me love you..

Is there a book on the art of love? Because here I am just trying to love you, and I seem to always mess it up.... Maybe that's part of love, so that when you mess up, they'll pick you back up and then you'll know that they really love you too....

....

At this point, it unfortunately seems like there is no universal truths because people seem to be more concerned with creating their own realities rather than perceiving reality the way it should be to help us find the ultimatum in truth. But the truth cannot be changed, it is there; to some more redundant than others. And the truth can and should affect people. The truth can change people. But it has been clouded and buried under all this debree of misinformation, hence the ignorance in people.

....

Now after going back and reflecting on everything that was said and done and how certain things could've been done differently to avoid problems, I realized that the main reason I stressed myself so much and repeated things was because you never seemed to get my intial point or the good intentions behind it. Behind why I wanted us to find the loopholes in the system and avoid the typical/society robot lifestyle, getting caught up in a neverending cycle; feeding into it, perpetuating it. And your friends and my dislike of them and how I realized that some of them were fake and had hidden motives, which reminded much of just how people work in general. And I'm sorry for trying to seclude you from society and the true nature of people; I'm sorry I became protective and my dislike of humanity affected me to that extent. But I feel like if you would've understood where I was coming from and not just payed attention to how I was going about it, then we could've united together and found solutions. Instead of just leaving everything unresolved. One of my main intentions was unity in doing things right. And yes, my mind overwhelms me too, I am attentive to pretty much everything I come in contact with. But I have learned that some things are not worth wasting my time on. I have this thirst for knowledge and I love, absolutely love, attaining and distributing it. My quest for helping find ultimate truths started from an early on age, and I had tried to explain this all to you. But you never really cared to listen to my story, you never even really cared about me. So I was wasting my time with you too. I had been misunderstood a lot because of how different I truly was. People didn't really operate like me or were as attentive to things as I was. Everyone else just seemed to follow what other people were doing and I hated that; it was like zombies, the brainwashed masses feeding into the system like brain dead zombies. I realized this from an early on age, how people were tailored to fit certain needs and different things; how the education system was set up. I payed attention to all the details surrounding things and took note of everything mentally. I started trying to stitch together the pieces myself and try and find some relief from all of this. An escape. But I seeemd to always find myself trapped in the midst of it, surrounded by these hoards of zombies. And then I slowly started realizing the truth about everything and the true nature of people and it affected me. I became dissapointed in people and even ashamed to call myself human. I perpetually felt like I didn't belong anywhere. Until I met you, and our amazing connection sparked, and your arms felt like coming home. I felt complete, I had found my security; my certainty. What I had been searching for. But after some time, you seemed to misunderstand me like other people did. And our miscommunication caused fights and what not. That led to us forming ill interpretations of each other. When we were really just desperately trying to be understood. But it was a learning process, we were learning to do things right. We were trying to get to know each other so we could mesh together better and work as a team supporting each other.

If there weren't solid facts, a reason to garner knowledge and try to find evidence, then there wouldn't be a reason to do anything or learn anything. Because nothing would be true and are we even exisiting? That sounds like a load of bull to me; there is reason, there is certainty. This is what we strive towards. But because people are highly ignorant creatures, brainwashed, and what not; we have all of these clashing heads and misinformation being distributed; when we should just be focusing on the facts, our basis of ultimate truths.

And then we realize why so many things are being done wrong; because people aren't right.

Either way you are exceptional and there's no one else like you..

No absolutes would mean that nothing is ever 100% true or false, right or wrong. But we must remember that there is ultimatum and exception. There are tools we have created to help us find facts. Using scientific measurements we are able to properly measure and distinguish/identify things.

Usually to make an absolute, it takes more than one thing. All the correct things put together, like puzzle pieces. But this world is like a scattered puzzle and we are still piecing together everything, all of the facts and bits of information. Using ultimate truths, knowledge, and absolutes as the foundation for building our knowledge upon. The truth has always been there, we just need to identify it properly. Cigarettes had always been harmful to one's health. But factors, like ignorance and lack of investigation/etc. caused us to be misinformed on them. But they have always been harmful. Now unless something alters their production, by synthetic measures and what not, they will remain harmful. Much like anything else. What we need to change is the things being done wrong; they need to become right and stay that way. We need to exert consistency in the right places; it's crucial.

It's not easy to be me..

"Daisy has always been obsessed with finding the facts that surround things, the building blocks, the pieces of a puzzle. She has been obsessed with finding the ultimate truth and living the best life possible, doing the correct things. Finding ways around the system, debunking the bullshit and myths." I think I'm a natural scientist, I think people who have a hunger for knowledge usually are. And sometimes I can't help it, it's as if it's part of my mission; to contribute to that.

Life

I know I'm hard to understand sometimes..
I know I get complicated..
Like a puzzle you can't put together..
But so is life in general..
So come help me put the puzzle pieces together..
I know the pieces fit..

Misanthropy- The realization that humans ultimately only care about themselves, creatures with egos, ones that destroy everything around them for their own benefit and/or satisfaction.

Cursed or gifted?: Being detail oriented and noticing the details in things..

General facts. There is absolutes and they are the basis of knowledge/truth that we use to build up on and expand on. There is exception. Having the correct morals. the four absolutes, the yardsticks/building blocks; what people had to build on. You can have your own opinions, but not your own facts. People's problem is that they perceive things how they want to and not how they should be.There is general facts and people tend to be ignorant and disregard those. My frustration came mainly from this; and it caused me, being naturally detail oriented, to stress out certain things that to some may be redundant, but others not so much. I emphasized on certain things. I was really fighting to find unity, to do things right. My dislike of the human race came from how they were mainly doing things wrong. But we fought and you attacked me and I was trying to make points to help unite us; to avoid ignorance and form some kind of unity in our thinking.

Sometimes we need absolutes or ultimate truths.

Always struggling to find security in this world, certainty.

Looking for solid answers. the facts.

The truth is incontrovertible; malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end, there it is. - Winston Churchill

The ultimate truth. the quest for finding the solids in life. Like you and I.

truthcontest.com

In a time of universal deceit, telling the truth is a revolutionary act. - George Orwell

Truth is by nature self-evident. As soon as you remove the cobwebs of ignorance that surround it, it shines clear. - Gandhi

People can't change the truth, but the truth can change people. - Unknown

All of these worldviews, some ignorant, some unecessary, some misinformed. this is why we must focus on ultimate truth and what is generally right. have correct morals and strive to overall make the world a better place and improve the quality of life.

We all have to live and die, so the truth about it concerns us all.

I believe I was made to help realize/spread truth/facts. And oppsoe ignorance, debunk the bullshit. I have been detail oriented and attentive my whole life. and yes it gets frustrating at times. Because I notice all these details and I'm always searching for facts. It can get tedious. But I really hope to be a scientist someday and directly contribute to the field of knowledge.

........

Nights spent talking
With you
Getting to know you
Falling in love
And now you're just a stranger..
Your mouth
Your tongue
Unraveling words
That fall out like
Grenades ticking down
Building up
And exploding with insults
That dig in deep
Every grenade leads to destruction
Like every hurtful word you spit out
And I helped fuel you with ammo
I was foolish
But so were you
You were a lot of different things
And I could never quite put my finger on it..
Such an intense connection
That sparked at first contact
Can't be recreated
To every little woven down part of you
Every little bit of you
Stitched together
Such a complicated lovely
Intricate creation
Every complex piece of your puzzle
You beautiful bitch..


When she was bad
She was horribly dreadful
But when she was good
She was extraordinarily amazing

There is light at the end of the dark tunnel....

I didn't think I'd find love again, but here I am.... The thing is, is that I realized that where I thought there was real love, there wasn't. That wasn't love, as much as I loved it. I devoted myself completely, I gave all my love. But that wasn't love and I wasted my time. I'm happy I found real love.

So a friend imposed this question on me: Should I be loved or love?

I think there needs to be a balance. Balance is important. And sometimes we're so busy loving others that we forget to love ourselves in the midst of it; we neglect ourselves and loving yourself is the first step to finding love and happiness. You need to love yourself and be confident in yourself and take care of yourself. Value your life, as little as you may have, at least you're still here breathing and heart beating. At the very least. Life is a beautiful thing and has potential. People seem to forget and lose hope when times get tough, but when all hope seems to be lost is when you should be thinking of giving up the least, cause that's a time to fight even harder to get past whatever obstacles life has thrown at you. There is always a light at the end of a tunnel, not all is darkness. Remember that, when your road seems long and weary. When you feel so tired like you can't go on any further and you just want to burrow in a corner of that lonely dark tunnel and drown deeper in misery. No! You fucking keep on running! With bleeding soles, you reach the end of that tunnel, you have made it this far and your blood sweat and tears are only evidence of how much you've endured. Scars are only proof of the pain you've lived, a symbol of strength and endurance to show you that you CAN survive and get through it. Believe in yourself, give yourself some more credit. Let your anger and frustration help push you farther down this tunnel of tough times, make them be your incentive. There is end and there is beginning. Misery and sadness are only temporary. You will find happiness if you don't give up and you will appreciate it so much more when you have to fight for it. You learn to appreciate things more, even just life, when you have to work for it. It's like resting; it's more appreciated at the end of a long hard day of work, rather then just laying around sleeping in bed all day cause you're lazy cause then it gets taken for granted.

It's not that I didn't have any friends

I was just willing to sacrifice everything for you

But you didn't deserve anything from me

Or even close to what I gave you

Movies, television, and the media in general..

They lack originality and actual talent. Super edited.. Generic story-line.. I guess a main concern nowadays is appealing to the masses and money. Sellouts. Fakes. Over glamorized celebrities. I just want raw natural talent and some originality, something truly worth watching. I'm picky, and just a detail oriented person in general. Once in a while they release a movie that's decent, generally well-made. The upcoming Star Wars movie, for example. But it seems like it's always tied to a classic anyway. At least most of the time. Fifty Shades of Grey and Straight Outta Compton make me weep for the future of films, just to name a couple.

Fuck ya

Wasting life
Wasting time
Thinking about stupid shit
And then writing about it
Hah....

Anyway

Read this, just read this next time:

Pussy ass bitch
can't fight for shit
excess of flatulence
grimy hairy hippie
rude disrespectful
cocky stubborn
lying shit talking
cross eyed
backstabbing
two faced
fake
society robot
following the masses
unappreciative
ungrateful
and unwilling
twat
crazy self harming
destructive
violent
parasite
mooching
feeding
perpetuating
lazy
insecure
depressed
homo

and that's enough of this.

Ahh fuck this..

Thoughts bouncing back and forth between caring and not, fuck this. Like I'm so conflicted, I care but I don't want to....

........

There's always that one person who can never seem to leave your mind, no matter what you do. It's because you had such an impact on me and I experienced some of the most special moments with you.... You were my first true love and the first person I made love to. And besides, you were exceptionally beautiful and your arms felt like home.... How could I ever forget you? None of that can ever be replaced. Not your touch, your laugh, your face.. And that smile, that smile that made everything worthwhile. I'm endlessly sorry and I love you, forever and always. Damn it..

If only you could understand me, then you would realize. If only you would've stopped to actually try and listen. Everything was rooted in my love for you and fear of losing you. I was protective of you, but what a waste, how pointless.. When I still lost you. Being protective of someone shouldn't matter, when they really love you, because nothing can take them away.. "Oh you were a chore." For someone that truly loves you, it will be a privilege.

One of the hardest things I've had to do?

Watch the person I love walk away, forever.

Jjdhfjkdhdk

I imagine smoke surrounding me like fog, different colored smoke, as I jump around shredding on a Fender. Ripped pants, low cut top, snake bites, a few tattoos, and my long blonde hair hanging down in my face as it sways back and forth with every jump I make. Or switch the guitar with a drum set, I'm more passionate about drums anyway.

Mmm

I think the idea of making love in public, but somewhere like an empty beach, out in the open by the water.. That sounds romantic and thrilling, like feeling so free and the risk of being caught. Out in the open, surrounded by nature, making love passionately, as the waves come and go on the beach and you nearly avoid getting washed away with them. It just adds to the thrill..

Uncaged

Do you love her?
Then you will let her go
Like the caged bird
You will let them spread their wings
And fly away
Such a bittersweet goodbye
But if they loved you back
It won't be forever
They will return
Love comes back
But don't wait on it
You may be dissapointed
At least feel good
That you were sincere
It still hurts to this day
Watching you go away
But it was the best gift I could've given you
So maybe someday you will realize
And appreciate more
And enjoy more
And not be such a sad lonely soul
Because I love you
And I wish you only happiness
Even if it's not with me

Damn it..

Sometimes I get a longing for the past
Sometimes I want to run so fast
Back to you
Back into your arms
And make my dreams come true

These feelings
These little feelings I get
Tainted with regret

'Religion'

My mother had attempted to indoctrinate me at a young age, yet The Bible only stood out as any other fairytale I was read to as a kid, not the basis of my beliefs.

Exception

How do you exist

When humans are inherently selfish and flawed....

Interconnected Energy, Connecting and Disconnecting, Weaving Through Each Other, Finding It's Way Back Together In The End

Don't weep

Oh weary one

For the past is long gone

What was once sought

What you relentlessly fought

It's over

Let it be

Let it rest

Lay yourself down to sleep

When someone is dead and gone

They are no longer in pain

No misery

So why entertain these emotions within yourself

Torturing yourself

They are free from what you suffer

Everyday

Grieving for them

Do not worry so much

Oh weary one

They are at peace

At one with this amazing universe now

Not trapped in the jail cell of a body

No longer in flesh form

No longer confined to this bittersweet life

Be happy for them

Never forget them

But don't keep their memory alive

By remembering the bad things

Keep the good things 

Treasure them

And let go of the bad

It's not worth holding onto

Although you'll never forget what happened

And regret haunts you

Every now and then

Try to remember your dearly departed

And smile

In commemoration of them

Light a candle 

Let it burn bright

In their honor

Let your positive energy flow out

And join with their's

With the universe

Become one with it as well

So that you don't have to completely let go

Of what you loved so dearly

Because they're around you

They surround you

And they're a part of you

Together you make up the energy force in the universe

Memories stay strong

Vivid and clear

It's as if they were still here

And maybe they're closer than you think

We just can't see them

Oh but I can feel them

I don't say goodbye

I say 'until we meet again'

Because we will always be interconnected

In some way

And energy is powerful

Just like the love I still bleed out for you

I hope it finds its way to you

My Mind Is Happy When I'm Intoxicated

Minds collecting
And recollecting
Tired
Of learning the same stuff
Seeing the same shit
Replay
It replays in my head
Even though you're gone
And dead
Our minds are servants
To our ignorance
Poor tortured mind
I'm sorry for all these things
My eyes have seen
And you've had to keep a memory of

Dumbing down
For society
For little to no compensation
For our relentless efforts
We're here fighting
Resisting
Intoxicating ourselves
Following the masses
Feeding into the bullshit
Consuming
Perpetuating
Bowing down to higher powers
The ever influencing media
Corporate leaders
The government
We are your slaves
But is it even voluntary
Or are we all just brainwashed
Well if you can acknowledge it
If you're aware
Then at least you have a chance
To save yourself
But it's not an easy task
When you're in the minority
And keep getting knocked back down
Into the pile of flesh bags
Being controlled
Manipulated
As they're thrown bread crumbs
Like birds
All flocking together
To feed
Poor brittle bones
Overworked
To support the lazy
Your authorities
While they're sitting somewhere
Sipping their fine wine
Laughing
And enjoying the good life
Not giving a shit about you
Or your starving family
Your ever starving soul
Longing for freedom
An escape
From the never ending cycle
Falling into a spiral
Spiraling down
To our demise
Together we fall
But together we can rise....

Do what you can do now

What's happened has happened

And with every stride in time

It's more long gone

You are only prolonging the pain

Someday you will find

That what's important will remain

The memories

Those images of moments

From the past

That can still make you smile

A happiness that lasts for a while

Like a dose of medication

To help ease the pain and frustration

Yet sometimes 

It only makes it harder

To let go of the hurt

Because everything seems to be tied in

Together

Separate the good from bad

Move on

But don't ever forget

What you had

A happiness that can last

For longer than the moments passed

That's special 

And should not be forgotten

Even though you both fought

And

You can't change the past

But you can do something now

In the present

The time is fleeting

And soon you will be grieving 

For today

Don't let another good thing

Get away

There's more to this poem, I'll come back later....

Where does that life within you go
When you're no longer here
When your body's gone cold?
Where does the light in your eyes flee
I want to follow it
Such powerful energy
That emotion you ignite in me
Cannot be destroyed
I call out for you
I search high and low
But no sign no trace
Of your loving soul
Missing you is too much to bear
And I just want you to be alive and well
But you're so lifeless
When I last saw you
You were so limp and cold
How could this be
The one that I loved so dearly?
The one that I would hold?
I refuse to accept that you're just gone
There has to be something more
For me to hold on
And whatever you created in me
Is still very much alive
Your spirit was too lively
To be defeated
It had to surpass
And travel to another dimension
Your lovely ethereal energy
Floating away so magically
Like stardust in the wind
You may not be in flesh
But it's a privilege
Because you are no longer in pain
Or in need of anything
You are free from all these cares and worries
So just fly free happily
Wherever you may be
Carry the love I gave to you
With you
So we can still be connected
I hope the love I still have for you
Reaches you somehow
And becomes a part of you
I want to breathe my life into you
Re-animate you
So I can hold you
I know a part of love is letting go
But I wouldn't be able to
Not after losing you
So please
Take me with you
I want to roam free too
By your side
We'll sail through the skies
And never have to say goodbye

I'm Sorry

That life within you
Made your eyes shine so bright
And you were so curious
About everything
About this life
You barely got to live
So playful
Even neglecting
Important things
Like eating
Just to spend more time
Playing with my legs
That you took such interest in
And every other thing that
Moved
You moved my heart
Every time you stopped
To stare at me
And you would climb up on me
Just to love on me
Thank you for that
Because I did need it
As little as you were
And for what short time you were here
You made a huge difference
You are special
Little curious one
You were so eager
And excited
So loving
And so welcoming
To everyone who came into your life
So friendly
So carefree
So naive
And innocent
You needed protection
You needed guidance
You had been left alone
Too young
To fend for yourself
But maybe I couldn't help you
Because I needed guidance too
I reached out for help
To help you
And I'm sorry
For not being there
For not stopping it
I'm not sure that I could've
Things happen so quickly
Sometimes
Death can take place in an instant
And it's scary
I guess we dont realize
How fragile things are
Until they're broken
But I am learning
With a broken heart

Wherever you may be, you're free..... ~~~

Where are you now
You were here
So alive
And so happy
And now you're gone
Just like that
Like a flash of light
You're gone
Like you never existed
And remain as a memory
A distant dream
Where has the life in you fled?
Where have you been led?
I want to go there with you
I need to see you again
And not just in a photograph
So young
So naive
It was too early for you to leave
For this tragedy I grieve
Little poor lost soul
You have found another home
I have hope
You are continuing your carefree life
Somewhere else
And I hope you're happy
I just wanted to help you
I loved you so
And I should've known
I should've protected you
From the dangers of this cruel world
But I tried
And you still got away
I couldn't have you stay
I had no choice
But to let you
Run away
So roam free
My love
The love you gave to me
Will always live within me
I will never forget
And I will always regret
Forgive me
I never meant you any harm
I'd rather it be me that's gone