Even the air we breathe is toxic....

And even now
That you're gone
Your inspiration
Still carries on
A lasting effect
Like your everlasting memory
Remembering your smile inspires
But most of all
My promise to you
It retracts and bounces back to me
Every once in a while
Reality smacking me
Pestering me
But I want to
I want to do it
I was just discouraged
Pushed off the path
Fog blinded my way
But now it's clear
Remembering how happy I made you
When nothing else interfered
It makes it worth it
I want to be who I told you I would
Because I know that I could
Sorry if that sounds vain
Sorry if my ambitions are a little insane
But your argument is inane
When I'm proving you wrong
Day by day
I'm running along
Still not falling off
Still going strong
You didn't believe me
But your smile did
And to make it even more clear
I'm not doing this for you
I'm doing this for me
Now I'm not turning around
Too far ahead to even look back
I'm staying on track
It hurts
But I can push through the pain
To live is to relive everything again
Regret and tears
Frustration and fears
Fighting just to stay alive
It's a daily struggle
A bitter pill to swallow
But don't quit now
You've still got more road to follow
And you said you'd follow through
At the end of each day
You can't deny what's true
The light may be gone
But the truth shines through
You know what you live for
As much as you know why you're fighting
Because it's worth it
Life and happiness is
Those moments of sheer bliss
Maybe even in ignorance
But hey
At least they help me get by
And sometimes I don't want to hear
What they say
Drugs are bad for you
Okay
Well I chose my poison pretty wisely
I want to feel so numb
I can't feel that I'm dying
I can't even feel my face when I'm crying
But they're tears of joy
I promise
It seems like the best things in life
Are made to kill you
And I'd rather die happy
Than live sad
So seduce me and poison me
Like a snake hunting its prey
Wrap yourself around me
Pretend you love me
As you slowly suffocate me
My drug
My candy
You make everything fine and dandy
But I don't want to live that way
I just want everything to be okay
I want to escape
Let me get the hell away
That's what they say
Until they realize that nothing in this world
Is ever really okay
People seem to only remember why they left
But not why they came
And then they slowly start to remember
Those intoxicated days
People complain about the consequences
But forget the happiness that preceded it
Pleasure is a package deal with pain