I feel perpetually sick.....

I just feel so sick
And lonely
And foreign in this world....

I'm always left with a bittersweet aftertaste
Your love is in haste
A tease
A quick flash of bright colors
And then darkness
A surge of emotion
A dose of happiness
And then like the drop on a rollercoaster
My mood falls into the pits of my stomach
Leaving me dizzy
And caught in a daze
Lost in a haze
Wishing I would've never came
I should've appreciated it more
But really
I should've appreciated being alone more
Because we don't always get what we wish for