I amaze myself with my unrelentless love and care....

Of course it was going to be hard, we were both young and going through a hard time in our lives and we were learning and growing together and trying to make our relationship successful while also trying to become financially successful and just so many things.... But we were trying and we were making progress, you can't discredit the progress we made just because it wasn't a lot. We were working on communication because that's what led to so many unnecessary fights and misunderstandings. Communication can either make or break a relationship. And of course ours resulted in a break-up because it wasn't very effective communication; we were still working on it. So many things you bashed me about just proved how much you misunderstood me so it wasn't fair for you to doubt me and give those as reasons for leaving me because they were "irreconcilable differences." Reconciliation is within capability, but what was truly out of your capability was a thorough understanding of what I tried to communicate to you. And you held so much stuff inside, not knowing how harmful it was. And so yeah, it blew up. What did you expect? You weren't even actively trying to find solutions. You were pinning the blame on the relationship because you thought that was the problem when it was only a problem because you had made it one. Do you really need a relationship expert to tell you communication is vital for any relationship to be successful? And although you will both have differences, the best thing you can do is both agree on doing what's right to make the relationship happy and healthy.. But fuck you, fuck that, fuck me for following through. You ask me how I can believe in a person that has consistently let me down. Well, it's quite simple really.. I love you and I know you could change if you wanted to. So really all it comes down to is you not knowing what you want and not even realizing what you have/had.