Akasha~

You know, it's okay that you doubt me.. Because then you'll be even more surprised when I actually accomplish my dreams and goals and it'll be just that much more amazing...

I know we wanted to leave things on good terms between us, but we didn't come here for a goodbye so it's not going to be good...

I was really in love with this girl.. And I thought I would be with her forever... This is the regret I have to live with...

Oh sweet sadness, have some mercy...

And he looked at me as a tear streamed down my face. Sadness filled his eyes and he said "You really did love her, didn't you?" And he wiped away my tears and held me as I cried, "I've been through the same thing... But now you've found someone that will never leave you."

 Something I wrote in a journal when I was still with her:

Death will be our only separation, but even then I believe we'll join together as one like you said in that dream you had. You said you were floating above the world, up in the clouds, looking down below and you felt such an overwhelming sense of peace.. There was no fear, no feelings of distress, just pure tranquility and you thought "If this is what death is like, then it's not that bad....." And we talked about our spirits joining together as one after death and traveling the skies as ephemeral orbs of energy. So ironically, death wouldn't be a separation, rather a unity. And I thought that was so beautiful and I've held on to that... It's those lovely deep conversations we had that made me want to talk to you more and more and share everything I was feeling with you whether good or bad... And I became so enthralled by you that everything you said had such an impact on me that it gave me chills.... Even just a simple "Good morning," being able to see you looking down at me and smiling first thing after opening my eyes made me appreciate waking up and being able to live another day even more because I would get to spend it with you.... And I was just always so excited to see where we would go and what we would do... I was completely captivated by you...