Reality hits you.. And it hits hard.

Something written by a person who lost their first love (he broke-up with her):

“First of all it isn’t hopeless. The reason that he wont take you back is because he is honestly crushed, assuming that he was truly in love with you. And you were his first; no other girl will ever be able to fill your shoes. I know this first hand; I had a similar situation where I went to college, left the girl I was dating, and while I was away realized what I was missing and that she was truly the one for me. So I came home and through a great struggle, I got her back. I had to leave for school again and while I was away we said we’d make it work but when I came back again a couple months later I’d heard rumors that she didn't want anything to do with me anymore and she was avoiding me. I was crushed, I know she’s been with other guys and what not since then and it kills me to think about it, but I know that through all of this there is nothing I could do to get her back. She's stubborn as hell and makes me feel like its all my fault for going to college. Well even though I hate her and it makes me sick to think of all these other guys she’s been with and I’d have to kick the **** out of a lot of people who talk **** about her and would make fun of me for dating her because of her slutty reputation, I would still take her back in a heartbeat. Just because once you find that one great person that makes you feel right, no one can fill their shoes. I can’t find a girl that can kiss better, is better in bed or anything that she did for me and the reason is she was the first and I compare everyone to her and you will never find someone that your satisfied with so eventually, I presume someday, I’m just going to have to settle. I’d guess that guy feels the same way about you, but unlike me he’s putting up a bigger struggle to make you feel bad about what you’ve done. I think you have a fighting chance because of the fact that you’re the impression in his mind; you’re the standard he holds other girls to and that’s why his other relationships aren’t working. I don't think he’s going to give in; he’s probably bull-headed about giving you another shot. But the fact that he has to still have some feeling for you because feelings like that just don't ever go away, definitely leaves the potential for reconciliation. I know it’s been almost two years for me and I still think about it. Good Luck, I hope all works out for you.”