This needs to be poured out of my head, before I end up dead.... I need to wipe the dirt off my clothes because I've been laying on the ground too close to my grave..

Pointless devotion
Unreciprocated emotion
Tainted love
You're like a drug
Take the needle out of my arm
Make me numb to your charm
You're so insincere
Your touch ignites fear
Get me the fuck out of here
I try to run
But my heart holds me back
You try to console me
But the truth shines right through
You can't hide the sun
And now you're torturing me for fun
Is this what I get for all that I gave?
Is this what I led myself to
With the road that I so lovingly paved?
I can't find my luck
I think I left it behind
It's hard to give a fuck
When I'm intoxicated
Out of my mind
I don't want to live like this
Give me back what you took from me
Erase you from my memory
I kind of wish I never met you
I kind of wish I could hate you
But I love you
And I'm sorry
I know it won't be justified in a rhyme
But I'm feeling poetic
And you're on my mind
The world is at a decline
Like our relationship
That perfect needlework that
We were trying so hard to design
Was just left to unwind
But when I was with you
For a while
Everything seemed fine
When I could hold your hand
And call you mine
The planets seemed to align
Like your eyes
With mine
And our lips
And it felt perfect
Like fitting puzzle pieces together
When I would lay my head on you
And feel your heartbeat
Rhythm and harmony was brought back into my life
Your embrace was a security blanket
And I felt safe and happy
Just laying by your side
But fuck that
You never really cared
You never really realized
How special it was what we shared
So I'm just wasting my time
And tears
For still caring
For ever caring
Sure we made lovely memories
But what's the point
If they're all disregarded in the heat of the moment
Lost in these negative reveries
Will you ever wake up from this haze?
And remember why it was that we stayed
For so long
Turn back and finally appreciate
Before carrying on
But you're already so gone