Oh love..

I remember crying for you
I felt like if I went on
I would cry my own lakes
And then I could swim in my own sorrow
And I still could
But I won't let myself
I have forced myself
To disconnect
Like cutting off a piece of myself
Well there goes my second half
It wasn't much of a half to begin with
Lies create an illusion
And you fooled me
I helplessly fell under your spell
Your beauty only made it harder
To let go
When you told me to leave
I almost couldn't believe
I held on to the only thing I had ever really loved
The first person
And for that you are even more special
But it's okay
I'll just keep you in my memory
Tucked away
Some of the most beautiful things
Are only meant to be kept on display
So I will keep you there
Day after day
The memories replay
But the time has long since gone away
Hold on to what you can
But let what you love free
Light it up
And let it go
Why would you want to cage a beautiful bird?
I'd rather just admire you from afar
But wait
I want to feel you
I want to show you how much I could love you
More than anyone else could
I want to give you what you're searching for
Understanding and acceptance
A sense of belonging
I want to tell you that you're special
I want you to know..
How much you mean to me..
But here I am again being told the same thing
Just.. Let.. It.. Go..
I guess such a selfless act can only be done
By someone who really cares
But it's just so.. Damn.. Hard
To say good bye for good..
Well the good in good bye must be for something
At least I can keep a piece of you forever with me
In my memory
No one is here to stay
We can't
We're just here to leave a mark
And hopefully a positive impact
And have you remember us in the best ways
Never forget me
That's all I ask
When I finally leave someday
Either by inconvenience or death
Just hold on to what I gave you
At least the good
And never forget the love I gave you
I hope it forever stays engraved in you..