Full Circle

You're more lovely as a memory
I'd rather live in the reverie
I watch you cut deep into me
Why are my emotions paper thin
So I just give up and let you in
But I still don't know where to begin
You are a puzzle I can't piece together
But I still know the pieces fit
Sometimes the pieces get bent though
And then you turn into someone else
I can't keep filling your gaps in
I tried to complete you
That hollow emptiness inside of you
Like maybe I could save you
But you deplete me
You fucking drain and defeat me
The truth is not created
It's discovered
Although often contemplated and debated
Because it's complicated
Happy
I just want to be happy
But maybe what I want isn't healthy
The key is balance
So open the door
But don't go all the way in
Life is paper thin
One minute you're here
And the next you're gone
But they say
Everything eventually returns back to the same way
From dust to dust
So does that mean that we will return to each other
Someday
But what is time if only an illusion
What is hopelessness if only a state of mind
You're running forward
Only to go in a full circle
And come back to where you started
Is it because you left something behind?
Time can't rewind
But you can
We're like stray cats that keep coming back for more
But then we realize what we're fighting for
It hits us all at once
And then I stop letting all these things hold me back
Because something is only lost
Until it's found
So with hurting soles
And our aching souls
We turn back around....