Forgive my perpetual hesitance, my ever haunting negligence.. Some words will just remain unspoken, tucked away into the crevasse of my thoughts, eternally awaiting to unwind into a lovely array of words and emotions for you.... Bleed out beauty and have it seep into your memories so that's it's forever engraved in your heart and soul... Because I want you to always know, how truly special you are..

I'm sure you would like someone to kiss you
And tell you you're special
And hold you close
When you're cold
When you're afraid
Envelop you in a loving embrace
Bleeding out real raw love
No filter
Just me
And you
And the love we share

Well
You know..
I dream of doing that to you
Every damn other night..
But I could never fulfill it in real life
Because that's not the love we share
Maybe it could be
But neither of us
Will ever make the first move
Or even entertain the possibility of it
Because we are each confined within our own minds
Not willing to realize
Take a chance and try
Fear sets limits
I can't stare into your eyes for more than a few seconds
Before turning away
I fear
Pushing you away
Or scaring you
I'm afraid
Of falling even deeper in love with you
So I resist my temptations
Every time I'm near you
To get lost in your eyes
And kiss your smile
Why do you have to smile like that at me?
Your laughter gives me butterflies
And chills
Can you.. Just not?
Sometimes I just want to avoid you
I want to stay away
But that would be selfish of me
Because I value our friendship
Even if that's all it'll ever be..
And I promised you I would be there
And I want to be there
For you
But you don't know the struggle I face
Every time I look at your face
.... Or do you?
I doubt it
You seem so set in your ways
Afraid to try anything new
Perfectly happy in your secure little world
But is anything ever secure?
Well what I know
Is that I'm for sure
When I say I love you
And I can feel it
In my soul
Deeper than anything physical
A genderless connection
Love, love
Oh love
It's hard to decipher
But I know it's real
When I can feel it
And you ignite me with passion
It's amazing
How just being in your presence can do that
I wish you knew this
Every time you feel worthless
Any time you feel inadequate
I just want you to know
How special you are..