Farewell My Once Upon A Time Lover~

You know, I'm glad you decided to separate now; I can actually say that now. Because, the thing is, I would've probably never left you. Even if I knew deep down that I shouldn't be with you; I wouldn't of abandoned you; it's just not in my nature to leave someone I love like that. And although I never wanted to completely let you go, I'm kind of glad you disconnected yourself now because it allowed, or rather forced me to disconnect. And although it hurts to say, it really is for the best because even though we could've made things work if we both wanted to; it just wasn't the case unfortunately and I would've never been able to do it alone. A relationship is compromised of two people that are working to keep the relationship, together. Not one person trying to open the others eyes and fighting for it at every break-up, doing whatever just to not lose the other person. No, I was fucking tired of that; it wasn't right.. It just wasn't right for me to be the one that kept making you realize and pleading with you to value and appreciate. I put in so much time and effort and you seemed to get over me like I was nothing; it really makes me feel unnapreciated.. It makes me feel like I wasn't worth anything, if you were able to get over me that quick. But that's not true, and that's just why I can never be with you. Because you never appreciated, you never valued what you had; you threw everything away like it was nothing, when it was most definitely something. And if you couldn't see the worth in my love or in my sacrifice and effort and perseverance, then I don't want anything to do with you. What a waste of my fucking time, really. And we talk about valuing things, hah well.. I should value my time more. It was literally like a slap, a spit in the face, when you just threw it all away. I may have been abandoned, but I am still myself and you can't take who I am away from me. To say the least, being with you was degrading to me. It really was, because of the kind of person you are. The way you treat things, the way you treat yourself; you honestly don't deserve anyone. Do everyone a favor and don't hurt anyone else. Yes, hurt is a part of love; it's almost inevitable not to get hurt in love. But being the kind of person you are, you will ultimately just end up hurting people. You told me you couldn't even trust yourself and that's honestly scary; it's dangerous. I feel free now, although I still love you and always will care for you, I feel like now I am not in need of having you. I don't need you by my side, I don't need to even see or talk to you, and it feels great. It's a relief, like chains being taken off of me. I can no longer be hurt by your actions or words because I am not in your presence anymore, you're not even an acquaintance. So don't fucking ever bother telling me you care about me, when you were able to cut me out of your life like you did. Someone who cares will at the very least want to know how you are and where you're at; and I wouldn't of minded simple open communication like that, but you chose to cut it all off and I will not ask for any kind of communication again. I will not beg to have someone I care about let me into their lives, because I care enough to respect their wishes. And it feels great now, I can breathe fine and I'm not choking up all the time. I can dance and smile and sing happy songs sincerely. And love, oh love, I have hope that I will find you again and this doesn't necessarily mean from someone else, mainly it should be from within. But I have people in my life that I know genuinely care, my real friends are few but finding people who truly care is rare, so I'm really grateful. I have a lot of people I hang out with, including my close friends, and I make it a priority to be around people I can enjoy myself around and have a good time with. I want to make as many lovely memories as I can because memories are all we really have left in the end. I don't need anyone, but it's nice to know I have people there for me. I had sacrificed everything for you, but it was never appreciated; I gave all my love and attention to you, exclusively, but you were so undeserving. I am at the point now where I can just say "Fuck you!" and it feels great; it's empowering. You are no longer in control of my emotions; you have no power over me.